Feeling ashamed

I would first like to state that I am blogging because I have such a knot in the pit of my stomach.  It is 3 am and I cannot seem to fall asleep.  All due to the not guilty verdict of Casey Anthony.

Back in 2008 when the entire ordeal began the whole story hurt me.  At the time I was a new mom, Omar was born June 4, 2008; and the story broke in July 2008.  At that time I could not wrap my head around the idea of not reporting your child missing for 31 days--- and it still doesn’t.  For those of you who don’t know it took us two years to get pregnant...TWO YEARS.  So when I think of all the couples who would do anything to be blessed with a child in their lives it stings even more to fathom a mother harming their child.  Not just with Casey Anthony, I always get that knot in my stomach when I hear about child abuse.

As it all evolved and the lies and deception began to surface my blood would boil.  I felt so awful for her family, she had them fooled. 

I followed the trial since day one.  I watched it daily.  Listened to both sides, and do agree that there was some questions left unanswered.  However the evidence that the prosecution did present--- come on people it was the real deal.  I don’t give a crap how dysfunctional her family was, that does not give her a get out of jail free card (or did it?).  She lied about everything from the start.  Does lying make you a murderer- no.  But if it looks a like duck, walks like a ducks and quacks...than its a fricking duck!They found her guilty of providing false information to law enforcement.  Hmmmm...why would an individual provide false information?  From my non-legal experience in dealing with people, they lie when they are hiding something.  True it was a circumstantial case compiled of circumstantial evidence, but do you need to know how a person was killed to know they were killed? (Scott Peterson is sitting on death row for the death of his wife and unborn child and I believe the cases are relatively parallel).  If she drowned in the pool why was she not wearing pajamas???  I am a mother I know what kids wear to bed--- NOT denim shorts.  I am embarrassed with the outcome of this trial,  

I am likely one of the few people to feel this way about George Anthony, but I kind of liked the guy.  He always seemed like he was the only one who was thinking of Caylee and not Casey.  I know that her father was not the happy go lucky guy every one wanted him to be.  He got upset when people rallied around his house.  Yelled at reporters when they got in his face asking questions and making accusations.  He supported his daughter financially even when she was in jail!  Am I the only one who has a soft spot for him?  I really think he was the only one who did not cover up her mistakes.  I believe it is why she had such hate towards him--- he did not allow her to make him her puppet.  I think his words were "1+1=2"  when questioned.  Oh and yeah I could care less if he had an affair or not.  He was not the one on trial, and was terribly bothered that they made it such a huge deal.  George Anthony has an affair and they want to crucify him, and Casey walks? 

Cindy Anthony, definitely perjured herself.  I cannot say I would not do the same for my children.  Heaven forbid I ever be placed in her shoes.   I cannot say that I would not lie for my children if their lives depended on it.  Shoot---- I would kill for my boys, without thinking twice.  My boys are my world.  I can imagine how she sees her daughter.  I cannot imagine that anyone wants to believe that they can give birth and raise a child who could commit such an atrocity. 

However I am terribly disgusted with the reaction of Ms. Anthony’s defense lawyers.  When giving a press conference following the acquittal of their client it almost seemed like he was fighting back smiling while saying that the true victim is Caylee.  And the public celebration being shown on TV of them popping bottles in a restaurant.  How dare they--- a little baby girl is dead.  Regardless of how it occurred (although I truly believe it was NOT an accidental drowning) there is no justification for a celebration.  I am sure Cindy and George Anthony are not celebrating their daughter’s acquittal and will never stop mourning their grand daughter’s death.

I pray for Caylee’s grandparents, who likely live with the horrors of what little Caylee experienced.  I pray for the jurors who have to live with themselves and their decision to acquit...may history never repeat itself.  I pray for the world my children are living in- may their lives never cross paths with the evil that blatantly inhabit this world.